Wat I Am Rite Now...
today got p.e. do 2.4km run.....i was unable to take part coz of my disorder.....
rilli jealous of the otherz...feelin damn left out of tingz.they get to get tired,sweat n all physical.
while they get to get fitter,i culd onli watch them while holdin in a terrible pain of sadness,jealousy n anger.....
y cant i be like everyone else? y was i born tiz way,wif an unincureable disorder?
y was i chosen to suffer wif tiz negative feelingz within me?
i wanna get fit too,dont wanna get hurt physically easily at all...
hated myself bout tiz from time to time...
u guyz r rilli luky to be able to do tiz tingz i rilli wished i culd.....
man....fogot today actually fin skool at 6pm wich meanz i skooled the entire day.damn tired sia.well anywayz,tomolo iz sumthin to look forward to.had slight complicationz on watz gonna happen soon.at least we got sumthin for one part but therez still a lil prob tat we cant seem to do anithin but wait n c.goin bak from skool u dont seem as hapi but we're sry.u shuld noe wat we're up to.pliz be patience.when we go home,me,abu n nisa met some of nunu'z fwenz.yea tiz countz as i got new fwenz too!they're minah (i tink tatz her name) , ham , joe (not rilli sure watz his full name.his half malay half chinese) n su (by the way itz a guy.weird name i noe.he said he noes his name is weird but itz kool.^-^) .they ask my name (wich is imanuddin) n to them itz a rare name to come by.they're a rilli lively bunch! seemz to be care-free,hapi,hyper,rilli nice n damn welcoming! i mite rilli fit in wif them.hope to meet up again sumtimez if therez gonna be a chance.planz goes on sort of half way.hope tomolo gonna be all ok.
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ouh god.....itz now in the mid of the nite n i still cant sleep yet.cravin to eat maggi since day time.so yea rite now i'm eatin liao.lol.
so how does it look? nice rite? delicious rite? haha!
later mornin got skool start 9 am sia...cant be late since the party-pooper teacher (replace benson) started teachin us today.T-T
well after eat den i go sleep ar.gotta try wake up early later.
nisa iz ok oledi so later she oso come skool.(hope she not late!) tank goodness her prob not too serious.
hey,i've bin bak to skool since yesterday,even though i had a week of mc.
yeap,therez loads of new peepz in skool as the january intake took place last week.man.....therez so many of them too!the most of them all r wat we call,matz(malay "gang clans").man they're so annoying.tink they so big n findin prob in skool for no reason at all.
pretty gurlz u ask?well maybe yea but none are my type of wich i'm lookin for.
there are oso few tat stands out rilli well too.
1st therez tiz indian kid n his twice the wideness of abu!!!!! literally!(abu iz a big peep so u culd imagine the wideness.)
another iz an 'apek'! a man wich iz told (by steffi hu help wif the new student sign up) to be around 40 yearz old!man his gonna haf a prob fittin in the skool.well,since therez lesser klasses tiz year,most teacherz in our skool were transfered...every teacher my klass had except for one changed.now like 1st day of skool sia tryin to get to noe each other 1st.(-_-")benson gone sia...T-This one of the best teacher we eva had n now his replaced by a meany woman tatz a lil strict wif the rulez.ok maybe very strict!mr ernesto (our ex-p.e. teacher) oso gone.at least replaced wif sumone we oledi noe n shes one of the best we're gonna haf.april cheong oso gone.shes replaced by mr shaw (i tink tatz how his name iz spelled?) hu by the way iz more like a new fwen den a teacher.his great man!^-^well in skool as usual not many came (lazy onez...) so they're not gonna noe much of tiz new peepz.juz hope those hu nvr turned up (the lazy ones...) came to skool soon.they're gonna miss out on quite a number of stuffz.the examz r in tiz term too...sian....examz....wat a nitemare came through...
yeap,u peepz oledi knew tat i got blood in me pee.i told me parentz on the day after my chalet (3/1/09) in the afternoon.
they told me to drink lotz of watern well,the way tingz go,itz still the same.i've bin to the hospital(kk hospital) to get better.it seems to be juz another bad case of internal bleeding.
well here's how my dayz goes...
day 1
sunday 4/1/09
i woke up in the mornin to find me parentz tellin me to get ready to go to the hospital.after breakfast (ciken rice...) we got ready n left.
stupid encounterz happened in the hospital. lol. 1st of all a nurse ask me hu's the patient when i gave her my sick form and i was like,"ummm...me?" n she was like,"ouh..." n showed me where to wait.haha!
damn swey man,later on i kena a rilli buzy,slightly gay-ish (no offence!),chinese doc. lolz.
since my case iz bad,i was hospitalized.
well itz not too bad.occasionally noisy but itz all kool.reminded me of the good old dayz.food menu for 2molo came.the choices aren't preety but ouh well.dinner at 5pm (so early sia!?) came.not rilli to my liking but hey,cant be too choosy in here.a doc came n was told therez gonna be an x-ray done tonite.haizzz.....how troublesome.
more docs came to chek on me.since they're guyz,they joke around sayin i 'did it' wich coses the bleeding. lolz. hell no man! haha!
an evening wif a red sky.got me blood taken again (now i got 2 unnecessary holes in me...) n got my x-ray taken.nothin left to eat anymore tonite.made a lil fwen here anywayz.
well i tink i better get tingz started now.(drawing tat iz...)
my drawin for the day.
day 2
monday 5/1/09
cant rilli sleep too well last nite but i tink i got enuf rest at least.i got water transfusion so yea,itz damn irritatin.hahax!
listenin to 98.7fm in the mornin while waitin for breakfast.man i'm hungry.
after breakfast i made khidir call me.wat?how the hell he noe i in hospital?i havent even tell anyone yet!tatz khidir for ya.he has wayz of noein where sumone iz or has bin to.iz he rilli a 'ninja'?hahax!
lunch time i got macaroni soup n nasi lemak.fuh! finally full from breakfast juz now.my mother n granpa came at tat time too.den my father came in later on.
now tiz iz interestin,
i found out sumthin useful when i chatted wif me granpa for awhile.he told me tat he was wearin a 30 yearz old wrist watch.originally it cost onli $200 in the past but nowadayz it costs at least $1000!!!wow!tiz info culd rilli come in great in the future u noe?
den later my father go bak 1st since his workin.denmy mother n grandpa go home.
at about 3pm later it started to rain.seems heavy.the weather leaves me a nice,koolin n relaxing atmosphere.an hour later the docs came wif good newz! 2molo i can go bak oledi! yay!
soon it was tat time of the day again,dinner.it was partially horrible!!!theres so much veggies in it! espeacially in the veggie soup! itz so green tat i tink itz poisonous to my unhealthiness...u noe wat green colour atk skill means to us gamerz rite?(poison atk!) lolz!
at least theres mutton curry too.itz not too bad at all.
my drawinz for the day.
day 3
tuesday 6/1/09
finally got to sleep rilli well last nite.my pee'z colour iz bak to normal.the doc sayz i juz nid to take 1 more medication at 2pm later n den i can go.looks like i get to stay for lunch.haha!
bin tryin to make one of the best 'project' last nite.man i drew till my hand hurtz.time iz short.rilli gotta try to fin it up by today.
as usual docs came to chek the patients in the mornin.when the doc came to haf a look at me,they saw my drawin.she was so impressed by it tat she ask me if they culd photocopy it so the kidz in the hopital culd do colourin on it n make displayz of them at the hospital wards.
how culd i resist an attempt to 'stardom'? (in a hospital...lol) den of coz i let them.herez the pix tatz now in display in ward 56 of kk hospital,
so it seems tiz time i've left a piece of memory from my life for the kidz in the hospital.
went to the play room to play a few racing car games on the computers n x-box.at lunch time i went bak to my bed n soon,lunch was served.
omfg.....the hopitals very own ciken chop.....(u do noe i'm a sucker for chikens rite?) the best food i had in dayz!ain't like the usual onez i alwayz had but itz still rilli good.
the wait to go bak iz such a chore.bored sia.luky got my mp3 player wif me.den finally the doc came n gave me my final medication.yipee! now i'm free to go!but den i speak too soon.nid wait for mc n health bookletz n for them to fin declaring me ok oledi sia.den later when goin off oledi dinner was about to serve.wth?nvm la.on the way bak home wif my mother i go eat oledi.
den soon reached home n soon here i am typin on the lappy.
u noe...out of these past few dayz i found out some tingz bout meself.
1)some peepz rilli admire my drawinz,
2)older gurlz/women n cute lil gurlz sayz i am good lookin n sort of attracted to me,(wth? lolz!)
3)my life iz a lil swey sumtimez.kena good timing alwayz in life.good n bad tingz happened depending on the situationz.
hah!now juz chillin at home.2molo go skool liao.n i got a week of mc some more.nvm la juz go.dun wan to miss out anithin in skool anymore.i heard nisa has bin to the hospital too.iz she ok?izzit true?